What Covid and my mind taught me.
My granddaughter, Emma, had Covid-19, which was a hard time for a little four-month-old. Her parents also fell ill, and then it was my turn.
It takes a lot for me to succumb to illness. I am constantly working with sound therapy and frequencies, so my energy field has remained strong. I have come to understand that illness and accidents can occur when our energy fields are low in vibration strength.
As a seasoned self-aware individual who regularly checks her field and body, I was surprised at how I initially resisted this sickness. For most of my adult life, I have not had the luxury of being sick. How many of you can relate to that sentiment? We tend to push through illness like it's an inconvenience, rather than taking the time to understand what the illness is trying to communicate to us.
My mind was filled with negative affirmations:
I don’t feel good
My head hurts
I hope this isn't Covid
I hope I don't stay sick for long
I'm not good at being sick
This experience with myself was rather enlightening and amusing. I noticed the fear loop, the loop that perpetuates sickness, and the tendency to affirm pain. Why do we do this? For most of our lives, we didn't know any better.
I entered a state of deeper presence and stillness, becoming an observer of my consciousness within my physical body. I comforted the young, sick inner child who felt alone. I spoke lovingly to myself, thanking my body for its strength and recognizing its ability to heal.
I made a daily habit of expressing gratitude to my body for transforming illness into light. This shift in perspective significantly reduced my fear and pain levels. I allowed myself to relax, sleep, and provide self-care.
I also discovered a deep-seated belief that I could not get sick. When my children were young, I had a traumatic experience with double pneumonia that left me bedridden for 8 weeks. I was scared and struggled to breathe. During that time, I was dealing with numerous health issues - including monthly bouts of shingles. I learned to adapt and keep going, as my mantra became "I cannot afford to be sick with small children to care for and bills to pay." Being alone while sick was not enjoyable either. One weekend, my kids were out of town and I had to face my illness alone. This experience brought up a lot for me, allowing me to confront the version of myself from 10 years ago who feared she was dying. It brought awareness and healing to a deep-seated pattern where I neglected my feminine side in favor of a more masculine, "keep going" attitude. This energy of duality kept me separate from my experience of illness as a message for growth. I realized that I was essentially putting a "on vacation" sign on my own body and ignoring its need for rest and healing. This realization prompted me to shift my perspective and care for myself with compassion. Taking the time to be present with my body when it is unwell is a valuable gift that allows for growth and self-care. Your body is your friend so stick around and be that friend that comes over when you are sick to just be and hang out so you don’t feel alone. It will thank you!
Despite a quick recovery, I am taking the necessary time to fully recuperate without rushing back into my responsibilities. I prioritized self-care by canceling my chakra class and allowing myself four days of uninterrupted relaxation. I am gradually reintroducing food, starting with fruits and maintaining a clean diet by eliminating seed oils and animal products.
Listening to my body's needs and requests has become a priority for me. I deeply love and appreciate my body now, recognizing its brilliance and hard work. I aim to support and assist my body in its functions by listening attentively to its signals.
The next time you feel unwell, remember to rest and pay attention to the affirmations you are sending yourself. Try nurturing, supporting, and healing yourself with words of patience and strength. You are your greatest cheerleader in this journey of self-healing and self-love.
